i was getting my drysuit ready to go meet calvin and epuffy and nailer for a dive this afternoon. it was going to be my first dive in my drysuit. and i stretched the seal over cans last night. well, the neck was still way too tight (like turning my face blue), so i read the manual and i read two other drysuit manuals, and i read a bunch of stuff online, and basically it came down to stretching it over something and take a sharp blade knife and going around the whole seal in one motion between two of the ridges ... and so that's what i was doing - just going around the very first section, and everything was going just swell ... until i was getting close to all the way done ... and all of the sudden i heard a pop and the saw that the seal had ripped like 3-4 inches straight down the neck.
i felt like i had just been in car accident. actually, i still do. you know how your adrenaline makes your heart pump really fast and you get that ill feeling in your gut? i feel so shitty right now. i don't know what happened. i am very handy with things like this - doing meticulous and/or precise tasks, and i am very, very careful because i am somewhat of a paranoid perfectionist. i just don't understand what went wrong. and i am very, very bummed because now i won't get to go learn how to use my drysuit and i have been really excited about it and looking forward to it all week.
i seriously just want to curl up in a ball with my cat and cry!
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